I don’t really think being mad about homestuck’s association with second person justifies calling someone something like that essentially to their face, or loudly in a room you know they’re in.
Extreme black and white thinking moments, commonly accompanied by emotional dysregulation. Something that comes part and parcel with BPD. Rational thought capacity's kind of died entirely so I need to just go and hide for a moment.
Ok now that I've calmed down some I want to apologize. I should've been able to not snap like that and be able to see the rejection issues for what they were. Back to quarantining though for safety's sake.
Sorry for snapping at you. I was probably harsh, but I just knew that if I had been in that position in the conversation I would feel really personally attacked, and I’m kinda trying to be the type of person I would wanna meet.
Nah, it's fine and entirely understandable given how much of a bitch I was being. Like I got a problem and while it explains why I do things it doesn't really excuse them or mean that people have to treat me nice when I act like a dickhead.
not enough poetry fic in existence not nearly enough for some of my fandoms which are, admittedly, tiny i am the only one doing it for some i find one or maybe two that i myself didn't write for some i find NOTHING for some i have to dig through swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes and swathes of prose fic before i find a few poetry fics I can write the poems myself. I do write the poems myself. But I like seeing other people's poetry and I like reading other people's poetry. My being able to write poetry myself doesn't do anything to sate the want to see other people's poetry.
You can do so much with poetry in fanfiction! You can write narratives and lyrics and epics and dramas and long poems and short poems and gods know what else. You can do so, so much with it! But there's prose and prose and more damned prose. I don't hate prose, not really, but sometimes I do because I just want more poems and I find precious few. Just want to write a plotless thing about a character's mood? Poetry's got you covered! That's an entire fucking thing! Short, sweet, to the point and just focused on tone and emotion and nothing else! just fuck
A related pain is when you find a poem fic and you get excited because maybe this person did more, but it turns out they only made it a poem because of some challenge to make it a poem and they've written literally no other poem fics.
I feel like poetry is generally harder to write than prose, and much harder to write really well. Like, I’m not a writer, but I feel like I could produce some prose fic of acceptable quality if I had to. But if you asked me to write a poem I’d be completely lost. It feels much more complicated to approach. So maybe that’s (at least part of) why people generally default to prose fic.
i mean, as someone who writes decent prose (or so I have been told), i can't write poetry for shit. it just disintegrates into bizarre free verse with no rhythm or metre. and i know some people like that but a lot of people don't, and i couldn't make a better story out of it than what i could make out of prose. and it would take me a lot more effort
Except writing prose well takes effort too and I am tired of the idea that poetry is somehow uniquely harder. It's not. It seems harder, but it's really not. It's a skill just as much as prose is. But people write more prose and read more prose, so people don't spend as much time with poetry. Also poetry education is one of the most atrocious things I have ever seen in terms of art education. At least in the US it is piss fucking poor at best. It's not uniquely harder. It is fine to write shitty poems. It is fine to share shitty poems. People share shitty prose all the fucking time, but apparently shitty poetry is just fucking cursed.
for me, poetry is WAY harder than prose. i took a handful of writing classes in college: intro to fiction writing, intro to non-fiction writing, intro to poetry writing, and advanced fiction writing. what i learned is that i'm good at writing fiction and i enjoy it, i'm good at writing non-fiction but i don't enjoy it very much, and i am TERRIBLE at writing poetry (but i enjoy it.) of the many dozens of poems i've attempted, there are 3 i feel are any good at all. (and one of those has such a specific and tiny cross-sections of allusions that i suspect i'm the only person who'd even enjoy it.) i think part of it is that, in a lot of American primary and secondary education, students aren't even taught to read poetry critically, never mind writing it. at least when i was in high school, we read a whole bunch of books and short stories and maybe a handful of poems. and even at the college level, your basic "intro to lit" or whatever is likely to contain way more prose than poetry. so no one is taught to even appreciate poetry in the way we're taught to appreciate prose... which makes it harder to approach when you're trying to write it, because you just have much less experience with it.
I personally can't fucking stand free verse, and paying attention to rhythm and meter takes up a lot more processing power for me than Just Fucking Writing, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
and like, just as a kid, i DEVOURED fiction books! but i didn't really read poetry at all until junior high. so when i made my first forays into writing, i had a way more instinctive understanding of prose than poetry.
Yes! Yes that is the actual fucking problem. It's not that poetry is somehow uniquely harder by its very nature. It's that people aren't familiar with it and our way of approaching it is frankly shit. At best. and i don't like this i hate this i just want there to be more poetry fics and more poetry in general but all i get are tiny fucking aisles in bookstores and maybe one poem in an entire fucking fandom that isn't written by me and everyone's just like oh poetry is fucking stupid and terrible and no one likes free verse and who cares there's more prose fiction let's just all do that instead
i just want there to be more poems and be able to whine about the fact that there aren't more poems without people going poetry is too hard and i don't like i like poetry poetry is the best i just want more poetry
