today i found a really nice vegetarian/asian restaurant and also got enough hair ties to last me a whole 3 days! (i'm constantly losing ties. i probably lost five already and i just got them out of the packaging)
i had a very important and powerful realization earlier. i am not my mother. Spoiler: backstage i am not the person thinking everything will just work out. i am not the person with 0% self-awareness i am actually working on this shit the people who keep "helpfully reminding" me about how the things i want to do are difficult and require a lot of effort and a fair amount of luck even though i know all this shit already and am already working with it are not talking to me. they see what my mother is like and act as if i were the same. but i'm not.
oh man a girl i knew from swimming (i do not... know how to explain my exact relationship to her without explaining competitive swimming culture in general lmao) is in Rio right now and she qualified for the 100 back semifinals and!!! thats so cool!!! (everybody always knew she would go far but!! Olympics!!! semifinals!!!! SO COOL)
Beta and Earthlings [Teakettle noises] Spoiler: steven universe babble Lapis and Peri being sassy roommates Peri is Trying So Hard Amethyst baby Smoky Quartz is a fuckin treasure WORLDBUILDING jasper getting character development Corrupt jasper's voice and design and everything PINK FUCKIN DIAMOND
I spent today with a friend, had fancy ramen, and bought new work shoes to replace my current disasters.
Someone on Reddit sent me a really nice message on my secret mental health alt. I don't know them, they don't know me. Sometimes the internet is good.
CHAPTERS HIRED ME!!!! the IDEAL WORKPLACE!!!! and it's only a 10 MINUTE WALK AWAY!!!! i have been jobless for over a year and now it's over in the best possible way!!!!
there are no updates!!! however!!!! this is still making me really really happy!!!! i am so excited!!!!!!!!!
My brain is doing that chill 'it's going to be okay in time' thing again, which, hey, it's temporary, I know that, but it's really nice.
I've felt very at peace this evening. very....centered and calm vague happiness, just kinda there this is a welcome change from last night and this morning-afternoon i feel so serene