French work also some cleaning. Offerings to gods were made too, which I consider to be a sort of productive.
The data for my research study is due Friday, and I got a bunch more participants today AND I went and talked to my professor about how one of my groups will be smaller than the other. I was scared I was going to break down but I didn't.
Okay so yesterday I filed my taxes (turns out I'm getting a tax return! not too much but enough for a nice dinner out, hehe :B) and finished my teaching project for my internship which starts in less than 2 weeks, and today it's only 10am but I've already bought cat food and litter, and changed out the old litter. I'm now going to sketch up a commission I got before going out to work.
So ... over the last year I have had Money Problems and that doesn't really work well for my avoidant personality issues so I've been basically ignoring any bill that isn't an angry Final Notice kind of thing. I know, not the smartest, but it reduces stress short-term because I'm not stressing about all the things that aren't urgent. So for some reason the electric company, Seattle City Light, had been letting me go for months and months and never sending me a final demand or We'll Cut You Off notice. For more than a year. I have no idea why, they're supposed to do that after about 3-4 months of non-payment. So I racked up a bill of $3500 or so. Which is way more than I can pay. And they finally sent me red-edged notices this month and I read them and I felt like I was dying of shock and panic. So I got paid today and finally gathered the motivation to call them and work out a payment schedule. Paid them $1000 now, and arranged to pay more off every paycheck. But I was so close to just letting the power get cut off because I couldn't deal with the phone call. It almost felt better to do that.
I did lots today! -Coped with Sudden Schedule Change (my therapist missed last week and our appointment was a few hours earlier than usual this time. She's sick and going in for surgery soon so her schedule is all screwy.) -Did therapy -Went to two thrift stores. I didn't get anything this time but clothes shopping is especially stressful for me so managing two stores is an achievement! Looked at some stuff to go with my binder but Fridays are always slim days at the thrift shops here. Also managed to try on a few things instead of giving up because Talking to People is Scary and you have to ask to get the dressing rooms unlocked. -Did the usual after-therapy groceries. This is where I started to wear down, though I note that this time it was heat + back issues instead of mental exhaustion. Progress! I still had to hide for a minute when I came home but I didn't crash and got back up after a little while. I just needed to lie down for a while and decompress instead of being so emotionally tired all I can do is sleep. Still a little worn and might go to bed early, but I don't have the 'fuck everything, pull the covers up over my head until tomorrow' I usually do.
Got my food safety certification, and tomorrow I'm gonna go get my uniform! And then I START WORK ON MONDAY HELL YEAH. WHO WANTS A MOTHERFUCKING DONUT.
I finished the outline I started at 10 AM. At 10 PM. I did it. I'm so proud of myself for procrastinating so effectively. *sheds solitary tear*
I worked at the circus! (which is not as much fun as you'd think, but still kind of fun) I also took a bunch of pictures of shriner circus bears because i am a rebel (due to copyright or whatever, blah blah blah, you aren't supposed to take pictures but i did anyway)
I actually did it yesterday but had to go to bed right after. I managed to make TWO page-long posts in an RP. This one has been on-and-off for several months and is approaching its 2-year birthday this summer. We've both taken huge hiatuses so both of us getting two posts in one day is like... -choir of angels-
I finally finished doing the dishes that had accumulated over 2 weeks of not doing them due to trying to work on a term paper, and the 1 1/2 week following since then. I have mugs and cutlery again, yay! I also washed my hair.
asked my teacher if there was some extra credit i could do because i hadn't written a paper that was due last thursday (colds fuck me up like crazy man...) she said i could turn it in next week XD thats progress because i haven't worked on anything besides the title page (dear sociology, why must you use APA?)
I successfully Adulted. By that, I mean cleaned out the fridge, got groceries to put into said fridge, and did a load of laundry. Dishes are a. . . well, my mother graciously offered to get those done. ETA: Also prepared supper, with enough left over for my lunch tomorrow.
I went to the therapist. Then I went to the psychiatrist without my brain fizzing out b/c new person whom I need to convey all the stuff that happened in my life Then I went to the drugstore and they're ordering my ADHD meds and they'll arrive tomorrow Then I moved all the empty boxes and sachets from my kitchen to their respective trash bags And then I did all the dishes, all two sinks full of them (although the pan and the stove are still soaking)
I packed for a trip! I have a whole 16 hours before my flight leaves and I'm packed! This is a new record! Typically I sit up all night the night before traveling and then start packing my suitcase five minutes before the last possible second I can leave and still make my flight, because I am a pro at self-sabotage.
