I've set myself a Monday deadline to get rid of all sugar products in the flat. I am really, really, really not happy about having to do this. I'm scared even though it's for the best. Just... witness my mood swings here?
Dad's sent the letters about ferrets to my landlords, so... fingers crossed, touch wood and all that.
Thrown out the junk food, cleaning the cupboards. I should probably hide my purse so I don't just go out and buy more too.
Is my life really so empty that I'd rather go to sleep hours early than be awake with no hope of sugar?
Advisor says alternate no-sugar days are probably going to be less stressful as a starting point, so I'll try that. I can manage a day at a time.
Ate some sugar but even after just one day without it I don't feel the same urge to gorge to bursting as I was doing before. Good sign, good sign. Will see if I can skip it entirely tomorrow or the day after too. Slow reduction will prevent crashing.
And as expected I've spent the whole day more or less passed out. Made sure I got up to eat and drink something, so I'll be okay tomorrow.
Broke my streak of avoiding takeout food, but I was hungry and too dazed to trust myself with the oven. Once won't be a problem. I don't even like it as much as I used to, so no temptation to order it again. I broke that habit, I can break the sugar one too.
I really want to be able to make something pretty and I don't know what. Soap and cookie decorating videos are awesome but no one I know would use the products if I tried that. I suppose drawing is cheap and doesn't leave me with piles of stuff no one would use, but I'm horrible at it. Maybe it's time I tried practicing again.