So, I've decided I'm going to focus more energy on my english/history papers, and do the bare minimum on this lab report and then study like mad for the exam. Because I don't know enough to write a good one, but I can write a good introduction with my tutor's help. So, even if[ [physics teacher] disappointed in my performance, I have made my peace with the fact that I am spending my time in Physics class writing my history paper instead of trying to make a piece of shit smell a little prettier. If I don't do this, I will definitely do badly on the English and History papers, which I can't do because no, I actually care about the humanities. Physics class is basically taught to the kids who already know physics, and those of us who don't already have to constantly play catch up. And I'm tired of doing that, so I'm going to work hard on the parts of the Lab that I can do with my tutor tonight, but prioritize my history paper and english paper (I have to write six pages on st by next tuesday, and four/five pages on my own sudden lack of faith in god by next thursday if i can get extensions) I know I'm coming into the home stretch in school, but my friend's graduation (and therefore, distinct lack of presense at school) has fucked me over more then expected, and I don't have the spoons that I had at the beginning of the year. I already have to study for everything, and I will study my ass off for the physics exam. I just can't bring myself to be upset if I get a really low grade on this lab report.