was going to go in today to get the official are you or aren't you for ADHD so of course, I stayed up till 5 reading slept through appt. woke up, called receptionist, rescheduled. (obviously still have to pay for the meeting because [fuck i just wasted everyone's time]) the lady is going to be cool about this probably because i'm going to tell her that i was sufficiently rattled re: appt/paying for appts that, while trying to relax about this, i nearly pulled an all-nighter so i've done everything I can to somewhat rectify the situation, but my fuck fuck you fucked up senses are still going strong, which is great. guhhhhhfuck.
Ironically, this might be another sign that you have ADHD? Because of "procrastinating" the appointment. Just because you had to reschedule doesn't mean you fucked up, it meant "not today." Rattled is probably a good word for it. You've done what you could to make it right, which is kind of the opposite of fucking up. Keep trucking.
You rescheduled instead of hiding and not calling, so you did great! I've sometimes simply not called back at all after missing something, so calling and fixing it is good.
I mean, mostly that's because they'll call back if I miss. But I've noticed that when places don't have that policy, I usually won't call back (though I'll try to email). This place doesn't do email though (though I hear that's generally the case for most psych service places), which continues to weird me out on a slightly anxiety-inducing level. Although I did just realize now that I don't think we actually rescheduled; I have a really clear memory of saying "I called to reschedule" but I don't think we actually made an appointment, so I'm hoping they'll call me to do that at some point since I am still too rattled to call them back. Unless we rescheduled and I forgot. But in that case it's probably the same time next week. what the heckerson, brain this is helping rather a lot, though. rationalizing my way through stressful situations is pretty calming, so thanks
If you have to, you can always wait a while to reschedule/confirm your appointment if they don't call (although I know that can be nerve-wracking). Give yourself a little time to recover - you earned it!
